fri/20211112

Technological snafu - a somehow corrupted memory card in my once-beloved Podtrak P4 resulting in another lost TSR interview – capped off this week in technological distrust: while I appreciate the Muse team's efforts to look into my "vanishing text" / reversion to previous version of text bug, their "but since no one else has reported it..." hands-up-in-the-air final response and the app's pulling the vanishing act that same morning was the final nail in that coffin: I ran a non-profit with a tech team and I know all too well the "since no one else is reporting it" response, a response which grates now as it grated a decade ago – a grating which cuts deep because Muse is a truly excellent app with amazing potential save what is, for me, a catastrophic dealbreaker: if I don’t trust the tool, I can’t work with it. And right now, I don’t trust it.

Solutions: working again in Obsidian and reformatted the SD card in the P4. Coming up with a pre-recording checklist to ensure this shit never happens again – or at least minimize its potential; two lost shows out of nine is two too many. Embarassing and enraging, particularly when I recognize the time sacrifice made by someone else for something of mine.

Beautiful day otherwise. Dogchild sustenance then back to work.

thu/20211111

TSR interview prep this morning to Elfman's DICK TRACY soundtrack; Madonna, "I'm Breathless" album up next. Both are so very, very good – and putting me in the proper headspace for this afternoon's conversation. Should be a fun chat. (Been awhile – hopefully this will start another TSR chain.)

Kirby is chasing a mouse and the mouse is winning: escalation of capture methods in order. Such is life in a Saturday morning cartoon, one rife with copious profanity and little if any profundity.

The day awaits.

wed/20211110

One of those days where the apathy, the indifference, the vacuum – all outside my control – are weighing on me. Might be a byproduct of high blood sugar, first in awhile – or the cause, the symptom or. Can never tell. But oh well, hell.

And so I rhyme.

Thinking: Do I need to amplfy my ambition for MainFicThing to make it a publishable short story? Push it – push me – into the next step? Or am I content in the confines of my own agency?

But nevermind: that's committing the cardinal sin of my thought processes: form before story. Never worked out / lesson (mostly) learned.

Regardless: only way through all of it just to do the work and let the shit I can't control be relegated to the "fuckit" box. Easier said than done: this is the perpetual practice.

The day awaits.