accepting a lack of acceptance and the journey to or against

Every time I do a TSR interview, the worry that I'm unprepared arrives three days before and lasts until the morning of the interview itself (my general method is to spend the day of the interview fully immersed in the guest and their work, so that the conversation is the final part of that immersion). This perpetual unprepared-feel stems mostly, I think, from my inordinate capacity to forget – even though I've been working this way for nearly a year – that I'm ALWAYS working on everything, gathering disparate fragments and shards and throwing them into the project folder, waiting for the morning of to assemble and collate into a cheat sheet / chord progression for the interview itself, usually completed to my satisfaction within my first 105-minute block of the day. Same deal with the newsletter.

I keep telling myself that eventually I'll settle into a rhythm of acceptance but I doubt I will. Perhaps this lack of / journey to acceptance is part of my process and I have to accept that lack of acceptance as part of the deal?