but what i really want to do is…

Recognizing, as I toil away at this Main Thing, that, were I able to draw (I gave up on finding collaborators after two decades of false starts and other innumerable failures) at a level at which I could realize what I'm writing in panel and figure and form (a level, that is, beyond (though not much beyond) my beloved Attendance Cards) as I see it when I'm writing the words, there's no question that 97% of I'm doing now would be comics. Part of the struggle in the writing process of MT is, I think, that I'm trying to capture in words and in rhythm what I'm seeing in silence and failing, to my standards, rather miserably. Solutions, TBD.