Remembering, on a deep, visceral level, what Suzuki meant in ZEN MIND, BEGINNER'S MIND when he said, in effect, that it becomes hard to talk about meditation when one has been meditating (I don't think I'm adding a meaning that isnt there in my paraphrasing but if I am, fuck it): the more I write, the further I get into the current thing, the harder it is for me to write about writing it – hence the dwindling of textual postings here (which probably means more will start to appear, maybe). Not recording / broadcasting this moment of clarity as an explanation to you (don't owe you one, sorry) but to myself. Carry(ing) on.