me v the (autoimmune) asshole

After almost a decade of T1D, I've accepted that on my really, really bad days – like yesterday, which started off great (ok, burning through my welding glove with the laser welder and crustifying the top of my thumb kinda – and still – sucked) continued to be great, then culminated in an evening blood sugar crash while playing HELL IS US that left me on the kitchen floor in a mop-clean-up-required pool of sweat, copious amounts of sugar and glucose gel consumed, and a 330-point bg swing, a tidal wave crashing back to earth overnight – my only goal is to not let the autoimmune asshole win: nothing else matters, everything else swirling can go fuck itself. Except for learning to get cards out of my wallet without the use of my left thumb for a bit. Relieved that I took up sleight of hand and card manipulation when I quit smoking (14 years and counting and yes I miss it every day). Ambidexterity rules, T1D droolz.

(again) upon a midnight hypo

Zombification remains: a midnight hypo alert (whether or not it was truly a hypo is unknown – I didn't feel the usual sweats and immobility simply a profound sense of annoyance and lamentation). Didn't help that I was then awakened by the time alarm in the middle of a dream about my former employ AKA the last time anyone thought I was worth employing. Stupor continues, throughin and throughout.

As per my usual biweekly formula, all consternation WRT the seemingly empty newsletter was for naught. Will be good to go for tomorrow.